Hi! First blog post wow. This site has taken quite a bit of effort to get functional (and will take even more to aesthetically fit how I want). I'm proud of how far I've come. For years I've been considering learning coding but delaying it. Then I finally got the push I needed and my goodness is it fun. Frustrating too. Trying a bajillion times to make a webpage that links to a homepage with few clear instructions was a challenge. But the feeling of accomplishment finally getting to see a site that is uniquely mine is *chef's kiss*.
As I alluded to in my dashboard I've gotten a bit tried of parts of the internet. Especially social media. It feels good to take my internet experience into my hands a bit more and learn about the coding behind the sites I interact with everyday. I'd love to learn more about how they all work.
For this site I still have much more planned, for example finally figuring out how to get margins for the text to work on this and how to get both the image and block background that I saw in the template to appear here. Also, I want to add some bells and whistles like a crossword, a guestbook, and a section on each webpage to report errors for links. I know from personal experience how disappointing it can be when a link to something really cool is provided and then the page no longer exists. So hopefully adding an area to report errors means more can be caught early and I can adjustlinks to keep the cool things available even longer for others.
Interesting fact: people with depression tend to use first person pronouns more than people without it. Learning this fact has made me think about how often I use first person pronouns much more. Like now. Now you get to think about it. Forever.
Linguistically it's also very interesting in terms of examining how your mental health impacts your perception which then in turn impacts how you present yourself in the world. How you are discussing your life and how has your mental health impacted that presentation?
It's a fascinating question to ask.
Anyway I hope you enjoy this first post and have a fantastic time here!
Can't believe I'm doing a second post and it's only been a day. This blog has been fun working on. I'm still visiting tumblr more regularly than here but it does feel in ways easier to write here. I still love my tumblr account don't get me wrong but it's nice to be able to 'free write' in a way. Today has been an alright day, usually Fridays are less busy for me and I'll be watching a movie which is nice. Sometime soon I'd also like to block out time to watch the half of it so I can give it my full attention. Many many movies to watch. I'm looking forward to adding to my page for that.
Today I'm quite grateful for the support from my friends. I'm also grateful for the things I have to read. And also for my mom. #mymom.
The tumblr jokes will be remaining I'm afraid.
Speaking of the internet and especially tumblr, one thing that I find quite frustrating about internet discourse is that it is very hard to get a sense how common issues are or how accurate their portrayal is. After all, there are very few metrics around how common discourse on the internet effects the real world unless it directly relates to political movements, nor many on how often general users post around certain issues. This can make it hard to know from within one's own group how common a view or issue truly is. What makes this problem even harder to judge is the prominenance of bots on the internet. Often I'll see people on social media screenshot a comment or response they have received and the contents will seem so out of pocket that at points I question if the writer truly believes that, is just a troll, or if the writer is simply a bot
That said discourse is still important to seriously analyse. It's simply that the internet has become so big it is its own world and trying to look at the whole as a result becomes incredibly difficult.
Guess who finally has made a weekly schedule!!!
This may effect my posting schedule (I will likely be busy) but don't fear - I have some blog post plans in mind already...
Today was not my best day but it did have many moments of joy, which I will highlight here. I saw a friend I haven't seen a while which made me very happy, I also got to go grab dinner with another friend and catch up which was a joy as always, and got to finally call another friend which I really enjoyed. Working on some worldbuilding and planning for writing today was also a great way to decompress and something I had missed doing.
Speaking of which, I may try to compile a list of some useful hyperlinks to resources on worldbuilding. Another idea to add to the board.
Wow blinked and three days have gone by!
Today has been quite a long day but in happier news I got to have lunch with my friend. And I will finally be able to finish Arcane tomorrow! I have many thoughts on this series as it's so good and has so many interesting concepts. It's just so gahjfehuwefhhefj;bfjufwhfiohefho'oofhwe';ibv. There's so many things to talk about that sometimes I feel like they all overlap and I'm just like fdbjkbfjfbuhifenifebehf'feopb'. You get?
In other news, I've been worrying a bit about the many commitments I've given myself and the possibly of burnout becoming ever clearer. I love many things and so have a tendency to stretch myself thin trying to achieve them all. The worst part is when it turns things I really enjoy into chores. Particularly reading recently. I love reading so much but I've been leant so many books/bought quite a few and given myself a deadline to read them all by and the list has gotten so long I fear I've started to intimidate myself out of it. I really do want to get my focus back up to start reading normally to relax more instead of scrolling all the time.
I recently learnt some more of python and would love to go practice it and try out challenges but time. My kingdom for an ounce more of willpower. To solve this with some smaller tasks I want to enjoy I'll probably delegate myself 15 minutes to do them. If anyone has advice they would like to share in the site's channel (for this time - I will get working on that guestbook soon) though that would be greatly appreciated.
I have a pesky habit of believing 'real' rest is something I have to earn after doing work but I struggle to do my work without really resting. My hope is that in making this blog post I'll give myself the energy to complete my work for the rest of the day and allow myself to do some of the other commitments I've made myself.
Sorry this hasn't been the most positive blog post yet. I want to be more authentic here which means I think I want to be more open with my mental health which is frankly, not always stellar. I'm very grateful for the wonderful people I've gotten to meet in my life and the oppurtunites I have it's just hard to keep positive and calm sometimes. Still, I have many amazing people supporting me and I'm always grateful to have them in my life.
I hope everyone who reads this has a fantastic day and hope this hasn't gotten too depressing. To end this post on a cool note, did you know vikings made their blades stronger by using bones?
I forgot another piece of good news!!! I got an email today which I had been looking forward to (and also got to hear about programming :D). Also got an ask about my book #mybook (I do genuinely enjoy my book when I get down to reading it and ignore the feelings of being behind)